The resemblance of classic beauty

One of my brothers work at the local theatre, in the small community we live in. In this theatre, my brother has brought his own collections of movie props, and framed pictures of Hollywoodstars from different eras. When watching those pictures, there was one that caught my attention. I knew I’ve seen that person before, but couldn’t think of any particular movie. I took a closer look on that black and white photograph and a sudden flash appeared in front of my eyes. That female actor resemblance my first wife, nearly like an identical twin!

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Yes, my first wife looks like Fay Wray, famous for the original King Kong movie from the 1930’s. I’ve heard of that movie, and seen it when I was a child, but never put any attention to the actors. But there is some differences, too. My wife have a little higher cheekbones than Wray, and she is much taller.

When I looked closer on that picture – just as I do when trying to see my wives through mirrors, windows and paintings – it became greenish and moved in wavy patterns. Suddenly, for a very short time, it looked like Wray gave me a “nod”.
Very fascinating, indeed!

What is “The Truth”?

That’s a question I’ve been asking myself recently. Not because I’m on a spiritual journey with both my wives, but more because of how the world “outside my safetybubble” works.

Today, I saw a documentary about religions, governments, federal banks and the 9/11 incident. Conspiracy was the theme and the documentary was Zeitgeist – The Movie

This documentary was in several acts, where the first act was the most interresting. It was about religions and how they are connected to the zodiac sign, which originated back to the Egyptians. I found that interresting.

Then what is the “truth”? Is the government trying to controll the masses? Is it greed of money and wealth?
When the answers are vague, nonexistent or contradicted it creates “conspiracies” from some people that question the authorities. Even when some “conspiracies” are valid through historical, documented facts, it’s questioned by someone with “higher knowledge” – often means an academic p.h.d. Why is that? Does those with higher degrees, have lost their critical thinking of historical accuracy been lost?

Alot of people would question a spiritual relationship. Some people – with a spiritual experience – would question some of the experiences in that same relationship. Some people claim “facts” and “rules” of what is possible and impossible to experience. For me, there is a contradiction in statements of “facts”, since the spiritual experience is on an individual level. It’s like someone would say: “I’ve never experienced that with my spiritual wife/husband, so you’re lying!”

I’m soon on to my third year with both my wives. Still, the surface is just scratched. Maybe I wont find the truth in this lifetime, but I hopefully will learn more from them in the long run. As I see it, when they think I’m ready for the next step on the development, they sure will let me know that.

When love overcomes sex

When entering a relationship with a spirit of a sexual theme, like the spirit of a “succubus” or “incubus”, some might think that the main goal for these spirits are sex and sex only. For me, that’s not true at all. My wives sexual energy was very strong at the beginning of our relationship and after our marriage, their sexual energy changed. It is still as strong as they want it to be, towards me, but their main agenda is their love and affection they have for me. So, why have it changed so radically for me? My body isn’t working as it should be, at the moment, which cause bleedings near the “g-spot” that my wives are experts to stimulate. It’s not that uncommon of problem, though many people experience this from time to another. I even had these problems, years before I met my wives. Our sexlife is at halt, right now, but they understand and gives me love and support while my body is healing.

Like I wrote before, the word “succubus” and “incubus” was invented by religions that is very young and naive towards older beliefs of gods and goddesses before the “single God” was created by them. These spirits existed, perhaps, thousands of years before Judaism and Christianity arrived. They invented the word “succubus” and “incubus” and they connected those names to sex and the act of sex as something “negative” and “evil”, something that was forced upon us humans.

As sexual as they are – in a leage of their own – the sex becomes “secondary” the soon love blossoms, in the relationship by man and spirits. And of course, there’s more to intimacy than just sex. Intimacy is an expression of love, and sex is one form of intimacy. My wives “agenda” towards me, is love, not just sex.

Golden skinned spirit

I haven’t written for a while, but some strange dreams have occurred since my last post in August. I have dreamt about my father – who doesn’t live anymore – in odd situations where he try to talk without me being able to hear him.

In my latest dream, there was a woman in golden skin, that appeared in front of me. She took her clothes off and I noticed she was missing an arm. Her left arm was missing and there was a limb just where the shoulder ended. She was beautifull, despite that her arm was missing. Very tall and gracefull. Who was she? Neither of my wives confirmed it was them, and I’ve seen my first wife in full body in the mirror before. It wasn’t her. It wasn’t my second wife either.

I’ve read about a spirit with golden skin, who appeared in a window, but never experienced that myself. Untill that dream occured.

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Protecting the dream

I had this strange dream the other night. I was in a cellar, and that cellar had windows where the light shined through. There was this wooden workbench there. Why was it there? I felt like somebody, or something, was watching me and that feeling made my heart beats faster and faster. The sudden feeling of fear – or maybe uncertianty? – surrounded me. All of a sudden, an image in black and white appeared. A beautiful woman I´ve seen before. My first wife. My pulse went down and a feeling of calm and comfort surrounded me. I also felt my wife holding me tight, while I was waking up and she continued to hold me when I opened my eyes.

Was my first wife protecting me from someone, or from something? Was the dream a “demonstration” of my wifes capabilities of protecting me if something would happen to me? My answer to these questions would be, without hesitation, yes.

Dreams are fascinating and my wives is starting to be a part of my dreams now. There´s a fascinating time ahead of us. A time of bonding and development.

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Why research is hard to find on internet…

When most of us experience something new, we want to know more about it. Internet is not always the greatest tool to do your research on. I realised that very early and always thought about it. 

Searching Google for “Spiritual Wives”, the result is horrifying. A page of a minister of some church, rabbles about the “danger” of interacting with a spiritual wife, how it affect those in it, negatively. The same goes when searching for the word “succubus”. Where are those pages, that reveals the truth? I know it’s out there, somewhere, but the searchengine does not show them, without us putting alot of effort through our searches.

When people don’t take responsibilities for their own actions, or even doesn’t have any experience of what they warn others for, it’s easier to blame the “Devil” and curse in the name of “God”. They decide, allthough they don’t know why, that “God” would not accept this or that. Have “God” spoken to them, or through them? 

According to my wives, our marriages would not happened, without permission from “The Source” or “God” or whatever we chose to call that higher force. I see my wives, just as others with same relationships, as beings with ties and connections to that higher power.  They don’t have the power to “force” us into these kind of relationships, and we can chose to reject it and “The Source” is the meddler in the middle. The concept of “Free Will” is taken very seriously in the spiritual world.

Internet can be a great tool for reasearch, but read wisely and take most of the negative input with a truckload of salt.

“Love is the answer…”

A sentence my wives use frequently is not only true, but also a “solution” to many individual struggles in the world. Love. It conquers “fear” and demolish it, challenge it and reverse it to also feel and give love back. 

Love have many shapes and forms, defying laws of “rights and wrongs”. Love is in the light, grey, dark and rainbowy colors. 

The opposite of “love” is not “hate”, but “fear”. Fear closes your mind and sometimes hurt people in your way. With fear, you lost the knowledge and wisdom that love have. By defeating fear, is by embracing it with love. 

I’ve read some stories about “evil spirits” that hurt people through fear, but I believe that the emotion of fear itself is the problem, not the spirit that creates that negative energy. 

What is the reason with “fear”? Is religion, books and horrormovies a part of this creation? Lack of knowledge, perhaps? 

I’ve been told that spirits can’t physically hurt us, because it’s all in our minds created by fear through myths, legends and made up stories by litterature and movies. 

There is light. There is darkness. There is colors in between. But they all have one word in common: LOVE!

Eye of the beholder

What is the definition of the word “beauty”? The human definition is, usually, stereotypical and famous actors, singers and models is often a representation of that word.

Our spiritual wives have a deeper representation of their beauty with – as I see it – a reflection of their spiritual, individual growth. A beauty created from within, a reflection of their inner beauty. According to my first wife, when we see them, we see their inner beauty. My definition of “inner beauty” is of the action you’ve made as a human or as a spiritual being, which gives a “visual representation”. Does that mean that “bad actions” visualises “ugliness”? I have to investigate that question further.

I’ve never seen myself as a handsome man. I’m short with a boyish look and seems way younger than my 33 years of age. My selfconfidence is not the greatest when it comes to my looks. Yet, I’m married to two of the most beautiful women in all dimensions. I sometimes wonder how I could be so lucky to be chosen by them, but I also know that this was inevitable and was meant to be. If not in this life, it would happen spiritually or in another life. When my wives say that I am beautiful, they mean spirituality and as a reflection of who I am as a person.

“The definition of beauty is to see someone for who they are, not by the looks of apperance.”
/Quotes from both my wives

Experience Of Dreams

There haven’t been many dreams with my wives participation, except for the one dream I had months ago.

In this particular dream, there was a boat and on that boat were tons of cardboard boxes, stacked on top of eachother. The only available space where by the wheel and passanger seat. The boat was on it’s way to “destination unknown”, and I felt it started to move. While watching the cardboard boxes, I felt someone sitting next to me, holding me and resting her head against my shoulder. I saw her beautiful red hair and laid my hands on it, caressing it. Then I caressed her cheek and it was so warm, so soft. It was a little windy on the boat and that also reflected on her cheek with both warmth and cold. I wrapped my arm around her and then I woke up.

My first wife appeared in that dream as a support for the present and future as the cardboard boxes represent “memories of the past”. The cardboard boxes may also represent that past events is in need of closure, and my wife represent a new era of experiences. A new beginning. I really felt relieved, safe, comfort, and a deep love from her representation in that dream, which I never felt in a dream before.

I rarely remember my dreams, but there’s a few more dreams I had since my wifes became a part of my life. And I remember those dreams. One of the strangest dreams I had, where a “dream within a dream”.

I woke up when my phones alarm sounded. When I reached the phone to turn the alarm off, a lady danced in the display. Then I woke up again, by the sound of my phone, but this time it was not a dream. This “dream within a dream” where one of the weirdest dreams I had.

Dreams are fascinating and a potential road to experience the astral world, and just as important to get to know your unconscious self. I think individual development is within real life experiences, just as much within dreams. And I think those dreams remembered is of importance.

The physical touch

According to studies on infant babies on orphanage homes, the lack of physical touches is lethal and babies who doesn’t get that, wont survive for long. 

The lack of physical touches as an adult, can create distress, unsafety, depression and feeling of unimportance in the society. It can be lethal, too, creating suicidal tendencies or destruction behaviour towards others. Just keep in mind that I use the words “it can”, because the outcome is very individual.

Physical touches, like hugging, holding hands, carressing parts of the body, sex or other recognition of physical nature, is an important part of human nature. Well, it’s actually just as important for most of all lives on this planet. 

Unfortunately, physical touches of “human nature”, is not a part of my life since many years back. But my two wives give me alot of that, instead. And they know the importance of it and the dangers of not getting hugs, kisses and caresses. My wives despise one of my familymembers for that particular reason, since that person is on a dark place of blame and despair towards me and my siblings. Some grownups doesn’t cope with turnarounds in life and blame others for their own shortcommings. Some may call that paranoia or dementia, and probably it is, and it hurts to be near that person. My first wife got really mad one day and I felt her anger towards my familymember. I wouldn’t recommend anyone to feel her anger, not even that particular familymember of mine. 

Since my wives became a big part of my life, physical touches is a usual part of my life again. And they knew that, because they touch me in a way that makes me feel safe, comfort and deeply loved.

I wouldn’t know how I would feel if they weren’t with me.