For many years I was lost and had a hard time to cope in different meetings and gatherings, such as parties and other forms that takes a lot of people. I was – and still consider myself – the “silent and quite” type of personality. I didn’t fit in anywhere, so I watched in the background. My silent nature and as a “watcher”, I became very vulnerable to the outside world and my heart was easily broken whenever love appear. I never ended those brief moments of “relationships”, the women broke up with me. All the violence, that appear in the news, made me questioning the goodness in humanity. And that made me sad and tiresome. I still have a hard time to understand human behaviour and that even includes myself. I often asked myself: “Why do they behave like that? Why so much violence? Why do we give up so easily? Why are we so selfish? Why…why…why?”
One of my wives said to me: “Your soul is tired, because of all the experiences it’s been through as a human. That’s why you ask so many questions about the human behaviour. That’s why you’re sensitive and vulnerable.”
If there is reincarnation, I feel I “payed my dues” to that point that I don’t wanna be a part of that anymore. And maybe that’s one of many reasons my wives choosed me as their husband; my reincarnationperiod is “complete”.